after a year i've began to realize, "everything happens for a reason."♥

It's hard to believe that it's almost been a year since i lost my sweet angel. This summer has sucked without her here, nothing is the same. the town, our school, our friends, her family, everything has been changed by this horrible tragedy. The hardest part is missing her because it's not once a week or once a month it is every single second of everyday. You know when something bad happens in your life you always have your bestfriend to lean on, who am i suppose to lean on when my bestfriend is the one that was taken from me? She was such a beautiful individual & when i say beautiful i mean inside & out. She affected so many lives and she is greatly missed by everyone. It's not fair, life isn't fair but it is sad when you have people out here who do illegal things everyday that threathen their lives & the lives of others but yet they seem to be the ones who live forever but my precious lakyn had to leave this world the day after she turned 18. I guess god had a plan for her & it really is true that he only takes the best. If you didn't have the oppurtunity to meet lakyn i am truly sorry because she was one of a kind. She was my hero, my inspiration! Life threw her many curve balls but she remained happy, always. I met her in the 4th grade and we were BEST FRIENDS right up until the day she passed. It was such a blessing to have such an amazing friend, i will be forever grateful. For all you  guys who have never lost someone so special to you, i have some advice. NEVER fail to let the ones you love know exactly how much they mean to you. Live your life to the fullest because you only have one life to live. ALWAYS & i mean ALWAYS cherish your bestfriend because you only have one thats close enough to be a sister/brother. This is the most important statement of all: no matter what happens in life always know that "everything happens for a reason." as lakyn would say...<3

After all this time.♥

It seems to me that i'm still living in a nightmare that i can't seem to wake up from. I don't know where all this time has gone or why i feel so distant from the one person who changed my life forever. I know that we all lose people we love, everyday but why when i was 16 years old? Why couldn't i lose her when i was 30 or 40 or why do i have to live without her at all? It's unexaplainable. It's just the fact that when your 16 that's when you need your bestfriend the most. Your going through that stage where no one is right but you & everyone is out to get you. The stage where your falling in & out of love with losers & the only one who understands you fully is your bestfriend. The one who you stay out late with, get in trouble with, call when you need advice, & just simply cry on when everything in life is going wrong. Everyone who is reading this has that one person on there mind, & that person to me was & always will be Lakyn.<3

The Memories still remain.♥

Whoever made the wise statement "time heals all wounds" has obviously never lost their best friend. Everyday that passes seems to be harder on me because it's just longer since I last saw her face. The memories of lakyn still remain in my heart & in my mind. She may not be here with me but she isn't really gone, I take a part of her everywhere I go. She wasn't your average best friend; she was more like a sister. Lakyn & I had the type of relationship where I could call her anything I wanted & she would smile like I complemented her. I remember one time I was in the bathroom at my house & she knew that I hated being scared but still yet when I came out she jumped up and screamed & for a moment my heart stopped. My first reaction was to swing back my fist & hit the first thing I saw which happened to be her nose lol. She rambled on for a minute about the pain she felt & then she started laughing hysterically like I had told the funniest joke she had ever heard. Lakyn & I were a two unique individuals, the way we would protect each other always seemed to amaze people. Lakyn was always by my side & still is because even death can’t do us part. I am thankful for a guardian angel like her. I love & miss you always lakyn.<3

only the good die young.♥

tomorrow makes four months since we lost such a beautiful soul. it's still hard to determine the reason she had to go, but god only takes the best & he got the best when he got her. lakyn was one of a kind, she always had a smile on her face however if she didn't like you, you would be the first to know! during the 8 years i knew lakyn she taught me so much. she taught me what it felt like to have a real bestfriend, she taught me not to get upset over little things because someone is always going through something much worse, & she also taught me to live my life because hey you only have one life to live. from the moment i met her i knew she was a firecracker but so was i & we used that to our advantage numerous times. we've had problems along the way but if your true friends, you will run into conflict. everything i've been through with her i would do it over in a heartbeat. the heartbreak, the fights, the disagreements, & especially every good moment spent with lakyn. she will always be in my heart. tomorrow i will start posting specific memories spent with lakyn & moments in our friendship that stood out the most.<3

I've created this blog to keep the memory of my bestfriend alive! She meant a lot of things to many people & she will never be forgotten. Even though she was only here for 18 years she changed the lives of others tremendously. I have known her since 4th grade & i still remember the very moment i met her. Lakyn & I had a very close relationship & she will always be my bestfriend. I wanted everyone to help share specific memories about her so that we can always remember her. <3